I go away, and it always brings me back in. Hello Live Journal.

Current Location: Computer Room
Current Music: Young Man Blues - The Who

LiveJournal is fun, but I'm gonna move on. New blog, yo!

http://moderndaycomposer.blogspot.com/

So like, things is crazy, yo. Buts its all good. I'm going to try to update this more often. Seriously. Peace out.

Current Mood: lunch time!
Current Music: Three Times A Lady - The Commodores

You guys are mostly lame.

Well, today was quite an interesting day for me. I woke up, and frankly, it all went downhill from there. I felt horribly depressed all day, and after going on a walk for 30 minutes where I just did some thinking and didn't pay attnention to where I was going, I ended up in the middle of the soccer field at my elementary school. I got back home, went to my [sister's, whos room I've been occupying for about a week now] room, and basically had an emotional breakdown. I cried for a while, tried to find people to talk to, and ended up having text conversations with the two people I needed to explain things to the most. I felt a lot better afterwards, and realised whats been happening in my life, why I've been keeping up with the way things are going, why I'm feeling what I'm feeling, and what I'm going to have to do with the feelings.

I'm going to have to wait this thing out.

It's my only option. I'm not going to stop having these feelings for her until I get my chance to be in a relationship with her. I just have this instinct that because my feelings are so strong for her, that eventually I'm going to get my chance, and something great's going to end up coming out of it. I know, you're all probably thinking, "How can anyone know how they're going to feel in the future?". Well, there's no way to know for sure. But it would seem extremely unfair to me for whatever power, if any, is in control of the universe to have it so my feelings were so strong but nothing would happen with them. Or just that it would turn out this way if there wasn't going to be the relationship I've been longing for for such a long time to reward my patience afterwards.

Man, this is going to be tough, though. They're so happy together. I've never seen either of them happier, in fact. They've got 4 strong months under their belt already, and its just going up hill from here.

I really hope the wait is worth it.

Tags: wait
Current Location: Upstairs
Current Music: Time After Time - Cindi Lauper

*le sigh*

Life is really not fun right now. So much crap. Not enough fun rewards.

I don't really know where to start, and I'm kinda tired, so I'm going to end this now, but I'll try to make a big important entry later.

If not, oh well. Not like anyone blogs anymore.

Current Location: Upstairs
Current Music: Its the End of the World as we know it - REM

Life is depressing and dissapointing.






So is this entry.

This week was pretty sad, but there were some up times to it. Limerance is annoying, though.

Going to Harvey Ceaders in a few hours - I'll be back Sunday afternoon. Until then, goodbye.

Current Music: Casimir Pulaski Day - Sufjan Stevens

So yeah, I've been really depressed all weekend.

This is not going to be a fun week.

Tags: depressed
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: The Weight - The Band